Sunday, June 20, 2010


You can hear a sample of this music I wrote when my father died by clicking audio clip on my profile (About Me).

Or, scroll down to my posts, My Dad, (May 22) . It explains more about the song.

Thought I'd share. Thanks.



Tuesday, June 15, 2010


That's what I mean by blogging in real-time! Having a computer, a laptop, or whatever device handy on-the-scene! Like the cello concert the other night, it was so easy to write down what was happening as it happened, "telling it as it is", like a news reporter or correspondent! Love it! It's exciting, invigorating! It's seizing the moment and that's what it's all about!

When I was young, I wanted to be a journalist. Or, rather, it was one of the things I wanted to do. In truth, I really didn't know what I wanted to do. I thought I was gonna be a medical doctor like my mother. So I took a B.S. in Medical Technology as a pre-cursor to medicine. But after I got my first paycheck, that was the end of medicine for me. Meanwhile, I played piano all my life, took it up till college cause music was simply, naturally, a part of me. For as long as I was studying anything, I studied piano along with it, but I never thought of music as a career. I didn't even know there was such a thing as a music profession. For me, music was life, not work, I didn't have to pursue it, so I pursued other things.

But like the musical, "A Funny Thing Happened on the Way to the Forum", a funny thing happened to me one day. I joined a music competition, The Yamaha Electone Organ Festival, and won the locals in Southern CA, regionals in Northern CA, then the national finals in Texas. Winning First Prize, I got to represent the USA at the Internationals in Japan and I won the Grand Prix! God, I thought, I must be good! It was only then when I took music seriously. I gave up med tech but never gave up my license. I knew, yup, I KNEW, I was gonna go back to it someday. I wish it was music I wanted to do in life, instead! But I was already doing it so, I guess, it was never ingrained in me to become a musician as a profession.

Well, guess what, music became my profession! I'm proud of it, I love it and, looking back, if there was something I really wished for, is that, I wished I were like those musicians who, at a young age, simply KNEW they wanted to do music when they grew up. And that's why they are where they are - Beatles, Stevie Wonder, Barbra, Beyonce, Oscar Peterson, Chick Corea, and many more, rich and famous or not, doesn't matter! They're making music, living it and loving it!

Actually, I knew what I wanted to be when I grew up - a medical doctor, like my mom! But you know, when I was in college, I was 18, I felt something was missing in medical science. I thought that while medicine kept advancing, as a matter of fact, very rapidly, discovering diseases and cures, it was getting so far removed from its roots. There had to be something that, I thought, KNEW where diseases came from, something had to be there before it dissipated into something else.

As a child, I was always into the origin of things. I always wanted the whole picture, the big picture first. Then we go from there! In biology, I was always interested in the basis of life - the CELL!! Is that good or bad, I don't know. It's just the way I am.

I knew, yes, I knew, someday I'd discover something that explained everything, before and after, from beginning to end, particularly in health and medicine cause I was gonna be a doctor, right?

Behold, AYURVEDA!! The first time I ever heard of Ayurveda (Science of Life) in PERFECT HEALTH AND REVERSAL OF AGING PROCESS Conference in Manila, I found the missing link. I knew this was what I was looking for all my life! That's how I became a pioneer of Ayurveda. Dr. Deepak Chopra, M.D., once said, "Western Medicine is good. It is useful, it's effective, especially in trauma, in acute conditions, but it lacks the knowledge."
I knew all along I was right.

Knowledge is Power. Now, having knowledge in both Ayurveda and medical science, I'm very proud of it! It gives me a better understanding, deeper awareness, greater appreciation of life and health in Ayurveda, and about health and disease in clinical lab science.

As to journalism, in college, as I said, I felt something was incomplete with medical science, and I was very frustrated, so I decided to take a semester of journalism, thinking that if I was really interested in it, I would simply change courses. I was, but then I got accepted for internship in med tech the next semester. That's how journalism was put on hold, or shall I say, to a halt, along with music.

Writing was one of my passions besides music since I was a little girl. In fact, when I returned home last March, one of the things I did was open old old boxes of family and personal "treasures" - photos, papers, music, etc., sort them out and clean up. And lo and behold, I discovered about 3 diaries I had since I was a kid up to college. My brother even reminded me that I had a diary named Mon Ami, (where I got that name, I don't even remember), and OMG, I accidentally stumbled into it when I was looking into my old stuff!

In high school, I loved writing. I always did better in written tests than in oral because I was too shy to talk in front of the class. My English teacher once wrote a comment on one of my essays, "You have a deep insight into human nature. Keep it up."

At that age, somehow I knew what she meant by 'human nature' but I didn't know what 'insight' was. From the context, it meant 'understanding' but, I thought, why didn't she just use the word, understanding, and make it simple. So I asked her, "What is insight, understanding?"
She said, "Yes, but it's deeper than that."

When my dad died in 2000, I started a journal to express my grief. I would write to him and when my brother passed on, too, I continued my writings. I haven't written to them for a while and especially now that I'm blogging, my journal might just become a closed book. No, not really. Somehow, I've always thought, when I finish my journal, when all the pages have been used up, I will go. Well, it's been unused for a while now so that means I've got a long way to go, huh. I intend to live long, anyway, in good health - happy, healthy, wealthy and wise!!

Looking back to my childhood, thinking I didn't know what I wanted to do when I grew up, I realized I knew exactly what I wanted - to be like my mother, a lady physician! However, music was me, still is, and forever it will be. Meanwhile, I loved writing, too. And it's just coming back now and it's coming on strong.

When I learned Ayurveda, I also got interested in Jyotish (Vedic Astrology). Both are parts of the Vedas, the oldest scriptures of ancient India. It was then when I learned that I had both art and science influences in my birth chart!!

That was the awakening!! Everything made sense after that. I realized that nothing in my life was ever wasted. To think that for a long long time, I thought I had no direction in life. Yet, somehow, there was something in me that knew I was good in anything I did. I had great potential that just couldn't seem to express itself fully because of so many, what??

Yes, we are where we are meant to be. There's a reason, there's a season for everything. Yes, I've had regrets, I wished I had done this and that, and not this and that! So many buts and ifs, what ifs, and on and on and on...I've made mistakes and learned my lessons. I learn something new everyday. But when I was young, I didn't know any better. What I did then was my best, the best I knew how, yes, then.

We grow up, we learn, we move on. "Life is a test. It is only a test." We keep going...
Hey, life's too short, we might as well enjoy!

But, seriously, is life really too short? Or, too long?? I think if we live life well, to the best we humanly possibly know how and can, then we'll have lived life to the fullest. No cup that is full to the brim is too small or too big. There's an old classic song, "My Cup Runneth Over with Love". No life that brims over is too short nor too long...

Wow, all I wanted to talk about was blogging in real-time!

Thursday, June 10, 2010


Did you see the new show, I mean, yeah, it's a new show - new director, new format! Wow, they really raised the bar! I love it, love it! The choreographies are amazing! You can really see that every choreographer is inspired by each other and everyone is challenged and motivated to outdo, not each other, but himself/herself and to create even greater dance routines, aiming higher to limitless possibilities. Great show! I'm in it for the whole season!

Monday, June 7, 2010


The big 20 Cello Event just finished and it was beautiful! I've never heard a concert before comprising exclusively of cellos and what a treat! And the caliber of musicianship of these players is just amazing! Many of them are playing with the country's top symphony orchestras and have flown from all over, East to West, to celebrate the event in memory of one of the world's most beloved cellists, Orlando Cole, who died early this year at the age of 101!

Cello, outside piano and acoustic guitar, is one of my favorite musical instruments along with oboe and french horn. Cello is simply one of the most dynamic, most expressive instruments. It is so sensitive, it can express itself as one of the saddest sounds you can hear musically. And I never knew about its wide range. Or did I forget? I thought it was a mid-ranged instrument, somewhere between viola and string bass, but it's wider than that. Does it reach up to a violin's? I think it does. I'm sure it does. It's been a while since I last wrote for string instruments. I should write again. Anyway, it's a great instrument! I wonder if I could ever play it though, 'cause it looks taller than me.

A beautiful instrument, a beautiful concert!

P. S.

It's after show, refreshment being served, audience meet with the artists. Right now, some of the players are talking about their fond memories with the world famous cello pedagogue. Many of them studied with him.

Saturday, June 5, 2010

Inspiring...and Inspired!

Show just finished! I'm still high! All psyched up! Seriously, I'm inspired! Gotta do something. Gotta do it! GOTTA, GOTTA, GOTTA!!!


I'm at the piano store now. There's a recital tonight featuring classical and jazz music by the faculty of Oakland School for the Arts. Rehearsals are going on and it just feels good absorbing all the music.

Let me sign off now as I'm gonna enjoy myself tonight with all music. I'm already enjoying. This is what you call capturing the moment.

Luv y'all! Music is beautiful, remember that!

Tuesday, June 1, 2010

Music Quotes

It's easy to play any musical instrument: all you have to do is touch the right key at the right time and the instrument will play itself.
Johannes Sebastian Bach